What's MY motivation?

Where is my motivation? I don't particularly care to do anything, but want SOMETHING good to happen to my life. I feel as if i deserve it, but I suppose everyone does. My professor says that my forte are people, but I also can't stand them. I have absolutely no real interest in the grand population of people. I mean, half of everyone I meet feels as if no one has ever met anyone else like them, like they are special. Well, they aren't. Hell even I'm not. Everyone always tries to put that same scenario back on me as if I'm going to change my answer. Truth is, just like I don't care about the vast majority of people, I'm sure the feeling is mutual. There are probably only select few people I might care about in anyway, and maybe that is reciprocated.

So, I've gotten to the point now where I just don't give a damn. My self-esteem is shot. My confidence is shot, and my faith in people in general have been severely diminished. And so now, I'm supposed to think well of the future?! Why the hell for?! I have no motivation to finish anything, to succeed, to compete, or to care. Therefore, my options stay limited, because I am not motivated to try and fix it.

I am a hater. Yes, I "hate" on the people that have had easier lives than I do that don't even know what they truly get to enjoy. I wonder if they even care? Are they all selfish? Are they good people that somewhat understand what the REAL world is about? I hate how selfish wealthy people are. HAVE YOU REALIZED that rich people stay stingy, frugal, and selfish while the less wealthy share their assets? I think it's a matter of perception and habit. WHY the hell would a rich person even know how to share? Poorer people DEFINITELY know that shit, and if they don't, they will. Trust that. How horrible! They are horrible. Yes, I'm hating, and will continue to do so.