Have you been in a situation where you're sitting at a table with all a whole bunch of people and you look around about to take in the fact that it's great being out and around a lot of people...just taking it in, and then you realize - these people really don't even like each other. There's drama everywhere you turn your head.
For example. She's the exgirlfriend of this girl, and she brought the new girlfriend. AWKWARD! Or she doesn't like her because all of the grimey shit she's done to her. AWKWARD! Or she is not talking to her anymore because she's friends with the exgirlfiend. AWKWARD! Or NO ONE is talking to the friend and the new girlfriend except for one friend that clearly has to work hard at trying to make sure they don't feel alienated. You realize that no one is really talking TO each other they talking ABOUT each other via text message like no one notices. It's a waste of time.
Then you look at yourself...you're an ex of the girl that invited you out. The new ex. You're in it. It sucks. And you realize, at that very moment, that you've fucked up. You're not supposed to be there. You're involved in it. It's not just a lesbian thing, it's a human thing.
At what point do you look around the table and figure out if it's even worth it?
okay, so why did it take me a minute to figure out how to post a comment to your blog...? I thought I had to register. :) You're so much cooler and modern than I am. We just talked about a lot of what you just posted and I realize that we do need to set up times to talk. I usually take a break from studying on fridays, so if that works for you, I'm down. Asking yourself when to end your connection with something or someone is a good question for self analysis.
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